Yes I know it's like a week late for a first post. But here it is anyways, a little belated.
I suddenly realized that the suicidal ideations I talked about experiencing a while back have dissapeared completely. And I'm glad of it. That's alleviated some of my anxiety as I am not longer constantly worried I will do something disaterous not becuase I want to, but because I feel compelled to.
Oddly enough, the dissapearance of these thoughts coincides pretty closely to the return of a certain person into the regular flow of my life. It may be silly, but I really do think he may have chased away the demons, as I care about him deeply, and I know he cares for me. I just won't tell him that because he may think me crazy. Plus I don't want him to worry over the fact that I was having those thougths, since they weren't intentional or anything.
He told me something a while ago that stuck with me. About how he could never commit suicide knowing the people he would hurt. This has stuck with me, and helped me fight off the urges whenever they came.
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