Two more years seems so long

I graduated from high school more than three years ago. Yet I still have two years ago to graduate from my program, thanks to the year I took off. And at this moment graduate school may be a likely future for me. I think I want to get my masters in Psychology, though at this point I'm not entirely sure what area of psychology. I'm hoping my seminars will help me figure out what area I'm most interested in. But all this is drabble. With so much schooling left before me, it seems like I am still really waiting for life to "begin". College students haven't experienced real life yet. Sure you get to experience living away from home. But you haven't really experienced living on your own.

College students are still covered under most parental insurance policys. For some, mom and dad may still pay the college tuition. Even if they don't, you know you have mom and dad to fall back on in the hard times. You may go home for the summer. If you are living on campus you don't even have to worry about most of the bills being paid. Even if mom and dad aren't paying your way, Financial aid often will. So while the picture of the "starving college student" comes to mind, living off ramon and microwave dinners, the average college student in Canada comes from a middle class background, was raised in a middle class background and trully wants for nothing. For we all have our middle class homes to fall back on.

That is why its after you have graduated, gotten a job, and moved away from home for the first time that life truly begins.

Don't know

I don't know what I can do anymore. I feel like there are none of my friends I can trust. Whenever they are pissed off about something, I sit there and support them and try to be a good friend. But I feel like everytime I'm upset about anything I'm told I'm being a baby or behaving childishly. Something like that happened earlier today. I got upset at someone and went off to take some time on my own. Then I was confiding in someone I thought was a good friend about how I felt and why I was upset. When I came back later I found out that friend had basically betrayed my trust and relayed what I had said in confidence. And now I'm upset again because of what he siad to that. If I can't trust my closest friends I don't know who I can trust. There is no one left to confind in. I can't even tell the friend how I feel, becuase I know she'll just say I'm behaving childishly again.